Bashar Ali's Page
Profile Information
- Real Full Name
- Bashar Ali
- Literary Pen Name
- Bashar Ali B.S
- Nationality
- Jordanian
- Country of Origin
- Palestine
- Country of Residence
- Jordan
- City of Residence
- Amman
- Biography
- Writing is my passion where i can create and see wht i couldnt see or visualize before, its my inner sight into the depths of my self and the depths of others even if they dnt let me in, i began writing as a child for fun, now i write to satisfy my self keep my mind working and away from the regular life that it has been set to all of us
- Poem #1
- Forgotten child
Im a child
With a baby sister and a rarely absent mind
With my mom I went to the doctor
She held my baby sister
And my hand on the other side
We walked to the building
At the very top of the hill
To get my teeth checked I had nothing in mind
I walked without a question
I had no reason in my mind
My thumb in my mouth
My shoe lace untied
As we march up that stares
With a smile upon my face
My mom had told me that I would get a lollipop in the end
I smell the fumes from the top of the stairs
My mom holds my sister and I saw the fear in her face
I was a kid and I didn’t anticipate
I saw the people running in a stampede down the stairs
Running and stomping over me without a care
At that moment my life seemed so worthless it was just a waste
I fell a couple of steps and I bruise my head
I started crying and screaming
But no one thought to stop and even stare
I crawl to the cornet to get away from the people running down the stairs
My mom looks for me but her cries were nothing to compare
By the screams of people heading for an escape
Mom I shout
Screaming with despair
My emotions were simple
I was a kid back then
I only had fear without my mom in the stairs
I see her coming down and holding my hand
I cry and cry I felt so much pain
My baby sister sleeping without a care
I looked at her little face
And I thought good thing she isn’t awake
As we head down my bruised head bleeding
Im about to faint
My moms was so scared that I would fall and never wake
She held my hand to make me feel pain
She only wanted me to stay awake
Couple of steps to go
I can see the door right ahead
The light shining from outside
I can almost smell the fresh air
While I was walking a man hits me while he escapes
My hand lets go
I raise my head
And look for her
I dnt see her in the crowds im outside the door
I see a lady walking I follow her in her way
She goes down the hill and I scream for her attention to see
Weather she’s my mom or isn’t she
She looks back at me and I felt so scared
Turns out she’s just a woman with no feelings to me
Im a 4 year old kid and I fell to my knees
Crying with fear felt so lost in the crowded street
HELP! I thought but was to ashamed to scream
Afraid that no one would here me and some one may take me
I wanted my mom I wanted home to go to sleep
I look up the hill
And all I see is people heading down with no hope for me
I looked to sky I didn’t know my god that created me
Not hearing anything screaming is all I hear
I see the smoke rising from that damned building that got me
I cry for help in my mind sitting on the side walk with my head down
Tears falling from my eyes
My hands to my side
Can move
I had nothing in my life but my family
Im a scared 4 years old lost with fear as my dream
After a while the police arrives to the scene
I go up the hill just as it get quite and empty
I go look for my mom but nothing is to be seen
I look at the other side of the hill
An ambulance without a siren is all I see
My sister is driven away in a police car
I was trying to see who is in the ambulance that didn’t have a scream
As I look in the window I fell into tears
I walked away sadly and hid in the nearest ally.
- Poem #2
- The ladder
Coldness rush in my mind
Beating heart is silenced
Dreams no longer seen
The long sleep has become so real
The darkness turn to light
And the truth is finally revealed
Im walking in a road
That’s all I see
I take a look back
My body is all I see
Laying on the ground soundless
Trying but I cannot cry
Fear and panic is seen in my eyes
I wander the unknown looking for another soul
Looking for help a guide in this world
Im lost in the darkness
I have nowhere to go
I wander the forsaken land
Hoping to hear some sound
A proof that I exist
Evidence that I once lived
I look behind once again
Maybe this time it changed
I see loved ones crying
Shouting, with sadness upon their faces
I run as fast as I can
‘Wait I scream and shout’
The faster I run the further they go
I ran for days
I ran for months
Finally I was stopped against my will
A force pulls me back
Holding me in a trap
Fear covers my sight
A tear drop falls from my eye
Kept away from my family and friends
I surrender to this realm
I fall on my knees
I place my forehead on the ground
Praying god for some sleep
I close my eyes trying to redeem
All what is lost and all that wanted and all that I need
For one minute I fall a sleep
Then I wake up and out of despise I scream
I look at the sky hopelessly and ashamed
Not capable to feel
No blood inside me veins
The pale colors got in my head
No longer enjoying the sight that I claim
I sit on the ground
Shocked and so scared
I blame my mind
For making me suffer all this time
Clouds surfing the sky
Time no longer passing by
A ladder just came by
Across the street
It was floating high
I wanted to run after it
As I stand up and blink
It vanishes
The nothingness is burning my mind
I shout getting sick of being stuck in the middle
I go back to the ground
A thought hits me in the mind
I grab hold of it like it was the first time
A memory from the life I used to occupy
A slight feeling of false hope overwhelms my heart
I sleep
I devour
I gaze down in serenity
I faint from my memory
I wake up again
The ladder is at sight
This time I was prepared
I ran like there was no tomorrow
I ran for my life
Hoping to get some answers
It felt like a second chance
It felt like a slight breeze of victory
The ladder is now steps away
It’s too high
Im not letting this go
It was the end of the road
Many miles to fall
I ran faster
Crying trying to get home
Its reaches the end
The edge
I knew that I could die
I knew that if I don’t reach it I was going to fall down
To me it was worth it
I grab that last step of the ladder
Then I started to climb
I was so happy to have made it
I climbed
It was a long way to go
After a while I was above the clouds
The wind could knock me out
But I went on
It was my last exit
After tiresome steps my hand slipped
I fell
I thought that I lost hope
I closed my eyes
I was falling fast
Tears floating up in the air
But no
I couldn’t stop and stare
I had to fight to the grave
I open my eyes
I hold the ladder once again
The ladder stopped for a second
Then carried on
I was down by a couple of miles
I started climbing again
People may call me insane
But I had to know
I had to see for my own
I wanted answers
It was find out or die
But I was already dead
So it was my only option
I climbed
No more fear in my eyes
Feeling wormer as I get higher
To me I was going home
But what I didn’t know
That the ladder was longer than I thought
I kept going and going
I could see the end
The ladder is finally ending
I get to the final step
But there is nothing..
I shouted with refusal
I refused to fail
I jumped to the sky
I hold a wall
I climb over it
I realized that I stood in the middle of a hallway
I run again
It was a never ending journey
I find a door
I looked at it from a distance
Not wanting to risk my hope
Is it a trap door or does it have the answer?
As I approach the door and open it
I felt paralyzed from tension
I reach for the door knob
I feel so warm
I opened the door
I felt safe
I felt no shame
I decided to stay
Because what I saw was . . . . . . . . .
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